Liar Liar

First off, I feel terrible for not posting in so long.  In truth, I've only been to two services since my last post.  Which brings us to the lesson learned in one of them:  stop freaking lying so much.  The church that taught me this innovative lesson was none other than the JW's.  I have made repeat visits to their Kingdom Hall for a couple of reasons:  Reason 1-  My mother is elated when I go.  Almost as happy as if it was also time for God's kingdom.  Reason 2- When I go home to visit said mother, she practically forces me to go and bribes me with dinner at Pizza Hut.  I'm starting to suspect that a trip to Pizza Hut is HER incentive.

Anyway, the lecture was basically about being the type of Christian that others want to be around.  It was pointed out that no one wants to be around a lying Christian.  Of course, until I have faith I apply the message to humanity at large,  not just the Christian variety.  But the truth about me was the same either way.  I'm a regular Pinocchio!  Like... whilst lying I can actually smell the seat of my pants burning.  Awww man.  That sucks to say, but it's true.

I was discussing this revelation and dilemma with my best friend and we decided that I probably lie so much because I'm non-confrontational and a coward (I added that part. I seem to have no problem telling the truth about myself).  Lying is just so much easier than telling the truth.  The truth hurts feelings and I HATE doing that.  I've lied the most to turn down dates, invitations, and to people who have already come up with their own truth and are really just looking for affirmation. Who am I to deny affirmation?! Here are some scenarios of my lie vs. what the truth would have been.

You get the idea.  So obviously I can appreciate that I don't have to tell the complete truth.  I don't know.  I find that when I tell a gentle, toned down truth people don't understand what I'm saying and keeping pressing me and trying to talk me in to things.  Or they'll keep prying for reasons and stuff.  So I lie.  In any case, I really do need to start being more truthful.  Maybe this is why God won't meet with me.  That God is a stubborn God.  Then again, I guess he has oodles of time and is not pressured in the slightest by my whining.  Either way, I will start incorporating more honesty into my daily life so that I can live a better life, be a better person, and (should I ever accept Jesus as my personal lord and savior) Christian.